I don’t know why i do this but whenever good things happen I always fear the worst and feel the need to back pedal. Fast.
That’s what I’m experiencing now, because after a whole year of trying desperately to find a job, I finally found one, and now i’m freaking out.
As of next year I’m going to be teaching guitar to children in return for money. My guitar skills aren’t that great. And I hate kids. And I’m completely unqualified to do this. But looks like I’m still going to be doing it. Fuuuuuuuucking hell. How did I get into this?
Thing is, I do this all the time. I whine about needing work or whatever else and then when opportunities come up, completely freak out. This is a good thing. A very good thing. Ideal even. But even so I totally cannot handle it. Farking fark.